I Got This

In just a few hours I'm leaving to travel south to the location where I will take my CFP exam.  I'm strangely calm as I write this entry.  I've studied my materials to exhaustion.  Everytime I panic about something, I pick up my books to review.  And then, I quickly realize I know the concept and am panicking needlessly, so I take a deep breath and put it down.  I slept soundly last night and so did P, for the first time in the past few nights as he's been fighting a cold.  So I feel rested, prepared, and determined.

I realized this morning before I wrote this post that I have been through so much since the last time I took this test.  I have discovered exactly what I am made of and realized that I am capable of doing what I never thought would be possible.  Raising a child on my own.  Going through a divorce when I was pregnant.  Caring for an infant without the help of a partner.  I have been entirely self sufficient in every way possible.  I have set goals for myself and achieved them.  I have made new, wonderful friends.  I even ran a half marathon. 

When I think about this exam and the enormity that I have placed on it, I realize that I have achieved far more difficult things over the past two years.  When I look at things with that perspective it almost seems as if the test pales in comparison to everything that I have gone through.  Because I have achieved things that I never thought would be possible. 

So all that I have to do is walk into that testing room, put pencil to paper, and solidify what I already know, deep down: I got this.