In just a few hours I'm leaving to travel south to the location where I will take my CFP exam. I'm strangely calm as I write this entry. I've studied my materials to exhaustion. Everytime I panic about something, I pick up my books to review. And then, I quickly realize I know the concept and am panicking needlessly, so I take a deep breath and put it down. I slept soundly last night and so did P, for the first time in the past few nights as he's been fighting a cold. So I feel rested, prepared, and determined.
I realized this morning before I wrote this post that I have been through so much since the last time I took this test. I have discovered exactly what I am made of and realized that I am capable of doing what I never thought would be possible. Raising a child on my own. Going through a divorce when I was pregnant. Caring for an infant without the help of a partner. I have been entirely self sufficient in every way possible. I have set goals for myself and achieved them. I have made new, wonderful friends. I even ran a half marathon.
When I think about this exam and the enormity that I have placed on it, I realize that I have achieved far more difficult things over the past two years. When I look at things with that perspective it almost seems as if the test pales in comparison to everything that I have gone through. Because I have achieved things that I never thought would be possible.
So all that I have to do is walk into that testing room, put pencil to paper, and solidify what I already know, deep down: I got this.